Damn

2012-02-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

honestly, when you said u gv up, i die a little inside.

2012-02-09T22:08:00.001+08:00

and my mates are all there trying to calm me down

because I'm shouting your name all over the town

2012-02-09T10:42:00.001+08:00

and i loathe you,
more than you could think.

2012-02-07T17:18:00.003+08:00

last saturday we went for an island get away.
yup three of us without csy.
and yes, resolutions 2012 no. 1: DONE!

we made this decision within 24 hours over Pelita after office hour.
then we booked the hotel. and pray that it all went well.

apart for csy cancelled at the very last minute, we enjoyed.

2 swimming pools with private beach.

this is good right?

2012-02-02T22:15:00.001+08:00

i need chocolate.
i want chocolate.
buy me a chocolate, would you?

2012-01-25T23:07:00.003+08:00

another 20th
but i shall never forget my 26th
with you.

2012-01-20T17:05:00.001+08:00

thank you.
for asking.

2012-01-18T17:17:00.001+08:00

aku ada instinct la sial.

2012-01-17T18:28:00.001+08:00

setiap malam aku rasa takut.
sebab hati gundah. mata susah nak tutup.
mungkin tanda perlu banyak beribadat.

2012-01-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

places to visit 2012 (or maybe 2013) : australia

2012-01-15T14:17:00.000+08:00

places to visit 2012: pangkor island

2012-01-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

places to avoid 2012: kfc sri hartamas

2012-01-05T12:00:00.001+08:00

places to avoid 2012: ikano popular bookstore

2012-01-02T14:38:00.000+08:00

places to avoid 2012: tutti frutti ttdi.

2012-01-01T15:01:00.000+08:00

places to avoid 2012: solaris dutamas.

2011-12-31T15:18:00.000+08:00

Resolutions 2012: Be healthy

2011-12-29T22:53:00.001+08:00

Resolutions 2012: To enjoy life even though ur having ice cream alone.

2011-12-28T13:43:00.000+08:00

Resolutions 2012: To quit my job

2011-12-27T22:48:00.000+08:00

Resolutions 2012: To break off with you.

2011-12-20T09:00:00.000+08:00

maybe i should just quit this job.

2011-12-15T12:51:00.000+08:00

i think i'm doing fine

2011-12-07T13:31:00.001+08:00

i just wish you made me nervous

2011-12-02T17:28:00.000+08:00

i'll always miss you.
our love is like the wind.
i can't see it, but i can feel it.

thank u for putting into words my feeling.

2011-11-24T20:18:00.001+08:00

I already know what your plans for the weekend are.

I've been thoroughly briefed on the weather.

I've extrapolated your metaphors to illustrate your point.

I've heard your dissertation on what's wrong with the world.

I've paraded along next to your monologue.

So please. For me

Fill this silence with the words you promised to say.

- via I Wrote This For You

2011-11-23T22:55:00.001+08:00

and i think about all the beautiful times,
i watched you laughing from the passenger side.

2011-11-22T16:05:00.000+08:00

i'm a breaking dawn virgin.
24th november, here i come.

2011-11-17T08:59:00.000+08:00

and i love you with all of my broken little heart.

2011-11-15T19:01:00.001+08:00

listen,
now i'm done believing you
you don't know what i'm feeling
i'm more than what you made of me
i followed the voice you gave to me
but now i've gotta find my own
you should have listened.

2011-11-14T22:39:00.002+08:00

the problem is, i did not regret.
and i did not give up. and i am not hoping.
i kinda know the ending. however, i stay.
its more like i'm tired of telling myself to let it go.
maybe because i don't want to.
stubborn.
i kinda know the consequences. like now, eyes cannot stop twitching due to lack of sleep.
i have amnesia, i guess. i have difficulties in sleeping. sometimes, i barely eat. no appetite.
had lots of chocolate these few days. i thought i'm gonna be happy and stress free.
nope. didn't work. so i went out for bubble tea at 9pm. not helping also.
i feel like i have no choice but to watch tv. thank God masterchef us marathon.
and now.
why do i need the answer? why do i need to have an access to you? why do i feel like we should talk? why do i feel like you need me? but why won't you stay? why why why why!
too many questions to ask,
so many things to say.

whatever it is, i hope you can feel this romance.
my miserable romance.
since right now, i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
but you.

2011-11-13T17:02:00.000+08:00

sometimes when i miss you, i put the song on.

2011-11-11T09:21:00.000+08:00

when i let a day go by without talking to you,
that day's just no good.

sigh.

2011-11-10T17:00:00.001+08:00

"You've disappeared. Like everything else. Now who else can I talk to? I'm lost. When you left, and he left, you took everything with you. But the absence of him is everywhere I look. It's like a huge hole has been punched through my chest. But In a way, I'm glad. The pain is the only reminder that he was real. That you all were".

-Bella Swan, Twilight Saga: New Moon

2011-11-09T06:39:00.002+08:00

brilliant!
wedding version of my very favourite song in twilight saga.
can't wait!!

2011-11-02T18:44:00.003+08:00

it feels like Christmas in June.

- Babyface

2011-10-28T13:26:00.000+08:00

what if the one that got away come back?

2011-10-27T20:52:00.000+08:00

Well maybe it’s me
And my blind optimism to blame
Or maybe it’s you and your sick need
To give love and take it away

And you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand
And I'll look back in regret how I ignored when they said 
'Run as fast as you can’

- Dear John, Taylor Swift.

2011-10-26T09:30:00.000+08:00

i misss youuu so much
i feel it beneath my skin, through my muscle, inside of my bones!

2011-10-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

semoga cepat kau lupakan aku.

- SO7

bonafide rarity

2011-10-16T10:47:00.006+08:00

2011-10-06T12:31:00.002+08:00

its been awhile. so many things happened.
date night. lunch date. ipoh. holding hands. iloveyouyoulovemetooanditscomplicated. screwed up thousand of LODs but not entirely my fault. submissions. hearing. shah alam court. and you again. bbm. and urggggggh.

everything is so complicated.

and i just wanna withdraw the case. and you make it complicated.

and office trip to phuket and krabi next week. not excited at all.

i need a hug.

and i wanna quit.

2011-09-23T16:03:00.000+08:00

Dear boyfriend,

Thanks for buying me french bread, crazy straws, hershey's drops, ruffles chips and ice cream.

Sincerely, you get me.

2011-09-08T11:53:00.001+08:00

i wrapped it up and sent it
with a note "i love you"
i meant it.

2011-09-05T23:08:00.001+08:00

i need a doctor. call me a doctor.

2011-08-17T23:07:00.001+08:00

farewell Fabregas.
i wish nothing but the best of you.

Emirates gonna miss you.

goodbye.

2011-07-28T00:30:00.002+08:00

its a trend.
we don't watch the match at mamak anymore.
we see it live at the stadium.
july, still.
i'm so broke.
yup.

2011-07-26T23:08:00.002+08:00

i heart you to the moon and back!

2011-07-23T15:23:00.001+08:00

oh did i mention these Fanatik?

hi Ramsey. hik ;p

2011-07-18T21:02:00.001+08:00

Superb Awesome Week

2011-07-17T19:37:00.010+08:00

i got a cap from this boy ;p

in conclusion, Gunners is the best.
please come again.

2011-07-10T08:33:00.001+08:00

i'm about to lose my mind, you've been gone for so long

2011-07-05T00:33:00.002+08:00

what a pack July i had.
and its only 5th.
whatever it is, look!
we are officially together.
ok bye.

2011-07-01T10:55:00.001+08:00

i got stomach flu and
i've been thinking about you :(

Cintaku tertinggal di Malaysia

2011-06-25T08:31:00.002+08:00

plane ticket - check
passport - check

helllooooo korea in few hours! (haha)

2011-06-19T14:17:00.000+08:00

WHAT HAVE I DONE TO MY LIFE?

2011-06-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

tonton, ARE YOU KIDDING ME??!

2011-06-04T22:55:00.002+08:00

mother ambush me with 'the question' again.
got tired of hiding. i told her. everything. EVERYTHING.
well, not everything but most of it.
now, she cannot stop mentioning his name.
i wanna die.

arrhh!
what have i done!

2011-05-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

they are coming!
we are ready!

*jumppppp*

2011-05-26T22:28:00.000+08:00

there are a lot of things i do not blog. A LOT, A LOT.

2011-05-24T12:57:00.000+08:00

and he gv this to me!
hikk.. :p

2011-05-24T12:35:00.002+08:00

there is nothing sexier than when you wear a shirt
with the sleeves rolled up.
esp the one at bazaar ramadhan.

2011-05-22T12:58:00.003+08:00

nothing much lately. same routine.
court - office - court- office- home.
work.
and then by 15th; broke.
another routine is to create distraction.
kinda hard but i work hard for this.
current distraction is drama series. been watching it day and night.

so, gimme your drama series. anything.
i will hook up on my laptop then fell asleep til the next morning,
hence, not a minute waste thinking about you.

2011-05-11T21:36:00.001+08:00

besok saya ada Hearing Order 26A.
Tuhan, saya perlu menang.
tolong.

2011-05-10T20:52:00.002+08:00

i am hungry. all the time.
like now. i am super hungry.
that i could eat whole food court.
what the hell.

2011-05-07T08:40:00.002+08:00

i got divorce hearing this monday.
and i am freaking out now.
God, give me strength.

2011-05-01T11:31:00.004+08:00

not a big fan of william.
neither the royal wedding 2011.
but i have to admit this;
despite the bald patch, prince william looks super handsome with his red uniform.
so much like a prince.
makes me feel like i wanna marry a prince too!

2011-04-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

these days, i wish i was 6 again.

2011-04-25T21:41:00.001+08:00

things i did today that i regretted immediately;

1) ate the second piece of KFC chicken
2) downloaded two My Chemical Romance albums.

2011-04-24T00:28:00.000+08:00

"You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away"

- IMY

2011-04-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

i could..i could feel you forgetting me.

2011-04-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

its like i can't feel a thing without you around.

2011-04-13T11:41:00.001+08:00

glambert went to melbourne chasing her boyfriend.
glambert saw edward cullen and bought this for me!
thank you glambert for the surprised!

2011-04-05T17:43:00.001+08:00

:((

2011-04-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

bsj should stop tonight.
new addiction. it sucks.

2011-03-31T23:28:00.002+08:00

last year. thursday, 1st april.
when we wish it was just another april fool prank,
we wish it wasn't true, we keep on telling ourselves, no this is a joke, this is a joke, they are wrong.
until we saw her. numb. pale. lying there. helpless. its her body. with no soul.
then we started to realize, she's gone. forever.
and what hurt the most, to see the mother sitting at the corner fighting with her feeling.

one year today. but it feels like yesterday.
whats left is just a memory.
Allah knows best.
al fatihah.

2011-03-29T19:50:00.001+08:00

so malas. mati la.

2011-03-28T21:35:00.002+08:00

he said; well, thank you, baby
and i said; you're welcome, boo.

2011-03-26T19:13:00.002+08:00

HAVING A COKE WITH YOU is even more fun than being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona;
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yogurt.

2011-03-26T19:06:00.002+08:00

less meeting you. a MUST.

2011-03-23T21:07:00.001+08:00

i want meatballs.

:(

2011-03-22T13:28:00.002+08:00

i is rinduuuuu you.
and this is not good.

2011-03-20T23:01:00.001+08:00

so, i love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you.

- The Alchemist

2011-03-20T14:55:00.002+08:00

what kind of gedikness when you keep on talking about how cute lisa surihani is and i deny my dashing man is remy ishak, you go merajuk?
and esp when we have plan to tengok the supermoon but because you already merajuk and we have to go home.

i am a lot more cute than lisa surihani. you should said that, then i'm gonna say, yes remy ishak is my dashing man but you are the one that i'd love to go out with.

play with the words. don't just kick the damn ball.

2011-03-17T17:38:00.002+08:00

i go gugugagagagagagagagugugagagaga for your simple approximately 60seconds phone call this afternoon.

hehe

2011-03-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

ouch.

2011-03-14T19:11:00.002+08:00

and when i need you then i'll know you will be there with me
i'll never leave you
just need to get closer, lean on me now, lean on me now.

2011-03-07T16:54:00.002+08:00

that is so annoying when i asked you 'mana file contested semalam?' or 'bagi saya no hp ms chong'
and you answered me with KENAPA.
i asked you where is the file, i didn't asked you to solve the problem.
just gimme that bloody file.
jangan blame aku kalau aku jerit kalau kau jwb kenapa lagi.

arrgh!

2011-03-06T19:01:00.001+08:00

the blackberry isn't functioning. wtf.
urggh

our adventerous night out

2011-03-05T11:47:00.002+08:00

this is romantic.
sitting at the corner while baskin robbins.
and esp this song.
we should dance last night.

2011-03-03T10:35:00.001+08:00

Just one text. A simple text. Hi. Two letters, such a simple meaning. But then that one text, leads to another text. Pretty soon, nightly phone calls are a necessary habit. Phone calls die out, and you’re meeting up at the local frozen yogurt or smoothie place, hanging out. Hang out after hang out, a kiss appears. Kissing leads to hand holding, and soon your relationship status changes to taken. Year after year, “I like you” is changed to “I love you”. And then that one day will come, that one date that will change your life forever. The one date, where, the “I love you” changes to “I do..” A two letter text, changed to a two word phrase. A text, that changed someones life forever.

- via you

2011-02-27T22:15:00.003+08:00

i cannot stop crying. i think i'm going out of my mind now.
i had two tf today for the lunch and dinner.
still not working.
what the hell is wrong with me.
i feel like cursing.
damnn.

2011-02-25T09:45:00.000+08:00

nobody should ever forget that;
you don't need anyone who doesn't need you.

2011-02-23T10:42:00.000+08:00

you left me, forever, because of tutti frutti froyo?
speechless.

2011-02-19T11:52:00.000+08:00

Woke up feeling disappointed.
I should have gone to the office early this morning.
So that my mind will be distracted from missing you.
I guess, my hormone become furious due to three months of hell in the office.
Therefore, here it is, nothing-but-missing-you post. Again.

I miss your tan skin.

2011-02-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

So clueless. Don't know what happened to you.
Thus, I made few assumption.
Maybe you are tired because of the work load.
Maybe you're a mess because of your job.
Maybe you decided to leave. Again.
And maybe you think we should stay like this.

Whatever the thoughts are, I have another confession to make.
U drive me crazy the whole day without your texts and phone calls.
This is severe.
Call me. Now.

2011-02-15T22:56:00.000+08:00

Lying awake the whole day. No food.
Too lazy to eat. N then he texted.
Yes we both are going through hell.
Endless work, dateline, court and outstation court.
I don't know what to say. I feel so empty today. (blame hormone)
But all I can say is, with you right here, I'm Rocketer.

2011-02-15T08:19:00.000+08:00

First; Hearing went well. I won. My appeal is allowed with cost. The boss is so damn happy.
Second; I accidentally confessed it to him.
Third; shit.
Forth; shit he smiles about it.
Fifth; shit shit shit.

2011-02-13T11:37:00.000+08:00

Shit. I'm freaking out for tomorrow's hearing.
Help me God.

2011-02-12T10:41:00.000+08:00

Where's my Twilight man?
I've been missing the wrong guy lately.
The vampire has stop stalking me. I'm no longer haunted.
I'm someone else personal brand of heroine, and he is my fav poison.

Poison kills, please take note, Bella.

what kind of fuckery is this?

2011-02-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

2011-02-06T16:01:00.000+08:00

KL, I'm back.